A PENITENT’S PRAYER

One restless night...I slept...I dreamt...I woke...but I had had a broken night...unbalanced night rest...unstable dreams...and when I woke, all the things I wanted to say in prose were scattered...and my wet-hand shaking...coz I've had a broken memory...Yet, all the things I have wanted to say that morning in prose, I could only sing in quiet low songs...this 'Blessed Night of Majesty' called 'LAILATUL-QADRI' in this Blessed Month of Ramadan!

Forgive! Have mercy upon me…O Lord!

For my doom now I fear by thy word

I know thy cautions always I defy

But do not my penitence deny

O Lord! I bow down before thy will

And now, tears have my eyes fill

My heart wails…trembles with shame

My stubbornness now myself deny and blame

The time I should not’ve thy boundary crossed

I snubbed! In earthly lust was I engrossed

Ah! All’s vanity! My journey…now resilience

I am but only a mortal in penitence

Lord! If thou have mercy upon me

And let thy forgiveness be

I shall forever cease my penniless mortal’s ills

And never again question whatever thy wills

You gave me life, sustenance and protection

Now I fervently seek thy redemption

From this stubborn ungrateful ignorant soul

Which’ve swept thy mercy beneath it’s sole

O Lord! Forgive me; Let me be wise

Cover me from all worldly vice

Show me the way to offer my thanks

That I be placed among the grateful ranks

O Lord! I have done great wrongs

And wounded my soul with rotten prongs

If thou me not forgive and let thy mercy boom

I shall melt away to eternal doom

Forgive me…accept my penitence, O Lord!

I, like a tamed lion bow now to thy WORD

My futile journey’s end…now resilience

I am but only a mortal in penitence.